=It's My Style=

=MY BIGGEST MISTAKE=

2005-08-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

Harlow everyone... now ive no time to blog on this page of mine, therefore ive chosen a fast way to blog by using my multiply... therefore those who didnt get to see these link that i posted in friendster and came to this blog u can check out my latest update @ this site http://lovepsychodelico.multiply.com/

I wan to apologise to someone there, if u happen to view this page... i can now say im not trying to sake forgiveness.... but deep in mi it hurts mi alot and its hard for mi to forget wat i've said to make u so sad and angry.. but at the very least hoping that u will be forgiving and put back the past and looking to forward in the near future... i realised this is my biggest mistake ive done out of my 19 years of life... i shouldnt be blunt in my words.. i shouldnt be that mean.. i should initially think before i SPEAK...But at the end of everyday i just hope that u wouldnt hate mi for wat ive done... if u really let go btw us... i have no choice but to agree to it.. but at the very last day that i wished that wouldnt come... i know ive tried but only left with REGRETS for a lifetime..

=Update of myself=

2005-06-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

Hey people, im still kicking alive... ") Just to let u know that, the reason i've been not updating my blog, firstly, its because instead of working 5 days a week im actually working 7days... therefore at the end of the day im too shag out... adding on to it...things happen to much.. firstly, my work and secondly my emotional thoughts... so stress man.. like i say when im back from my bangkok trip then everything shd be back to normal... coz i simply need time to think and as well to reflect abt my work as well as wat i really wan.. and hope to acheive it within a time period.. perhaps 5 years 6 years or even 10 years down the road...

Im not the person who is good at handing emotional problems on my own.. i need people's advice and lots of support and encouragement.. lately im really feeling real lousy but there's too much that i refused to share with others as mi myself dun know how to put it up... and i dun wan ppl ard mi to feel the burden im already carrying... i maybe selfish at times for certain things... but end at the very end of the day i can't balance the both world... its either way gets it... but when i dun get my way out.. im feeling terrible.. but can anyone feel for mi... NO...NO...

Guess im too stress !!! Sorrie for grumbling and talking nonsense on my blog..
Hopefully after the trip, Karen will be back... and my thoughts will be sorted out and have a clear stand of wat i really wan in the near future.. Cheerz...

By the way... i've finally cleared all my papers for my advanced diploma in mass communications... its really a relieve for mi...on the other hand i pray that i can scrap through for my advertising paper.. as i haven received my results..... PRaY...

*i wish upon the shining star.. i could be happy again...

Where haf I Been

2005-06-10T13:39:00.000+08:00

Wouldnt and havent been blogging xtremely long... things happens... aiyOoo dunno wat happen to the blogger too... and my shoutbox.. pek chek.. anyway.. will blog again during july.. ling.. aiyOoo... its not i dun like u cancel ur name.. its the blog template auto one leh...

=Im no longer working on thurz & Friz=

2005-05-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

So long havent been blogging, because no mood wor.. either is because im sick arbo its... haiz.. Shh... Sick on labour day till now still havent recover.. jialatt.. somemore take the medicine i will do things very slowly, think slowly and abit gong gong one.. somemore i already so blur cum now gong.. aiYooo.. who ask mi never tk of my own health.. alot of medicine my system immune already.. arbo is i take liao will haf side effects... so doctor no choice but to give mi this medicine.. eat liao abit gong gong lor.. if not how am i going to recover...

Now onwards not working on thur & fri anymore then must work even harder to hit my targeted commission arbo i eat grass.. coz boss finally employed someone to work as full time.. coz i die die refused to convert as a full timer.. very stubborn of mi hor.. lolz.. thats mi... so must spend lesser... HOPEFULLY.. arbo must find a rich sugar daddy!!

Yesterday went out with alex to town.. watch the movie kingdom of heaven, haix.. SIgh the show was rather disappointing... wor... dun have the thrill and some screen are quite fake.. and when the war was going on its a total mess!!!! NOT AS GOOD AS I THOUGHT IT COULD BE... disappointing.. blah... blah... the show was 2hrs25mins... before catching the show at lido.. he accompany mi to shop he is the second guy i know who can really shop with gers, the first one was my classmate in MDIS callistus... lolz.. the other is him alex coz he is well trained by his sister.. good ah.. somemore good at giving comments in colours so i need not do the thinking and after trying can buy straight away.. keke actually wanted to buy clothes at mango, but like no nice clothings leh...yesterday in total bought 3 tops and 2 accessiors.. supposedly not to buy black but it seems long i havent been buying black clothings cant resist it therefore bought one piece of clothing in black.. lolz..OOopz.. BO PIAN LEH... yesterday did something malu in takashimaya when alex was away for a while, guess he has learnt a small lesson not leaving mi alone when im on medication.. lolz.. the malu and stupid thing too paiseh to write on blog.. so its a secret.. unless u are my sista u surely will get to know yeah..

Woke up this morning at 9plus coz he left mi a msg, was woken up by his sms, then went to bed till 1plus then started to rain heavily then cant sleep though the weather was good.. after washing up went online straight.. till 2plus msg ling to c wat she is doing.. she was sleeping wor.. woken up by mi by my sms.. hahaha.. anyway its good.. ling cannot sleep so much wait like OinK Oink not good... well now i got to prepare to meet her liao same goes to her.. will she be late later??? lolz.. i hope not... raining wor.. my place still.. sian.. will be watching movie with her.. really a movie marathon for mi.. but i like to watch movies so its okiee dokey... whereby my the other party does think alike as i do.. coz my life is so lonely.. Oh.. MISS LONELY... keke...

Songs Tat i've been listening to these whole week:

Wang Li Hong - Ai Cuo
Zhang Jing Xuan - Wu Neng Wei Li, Ming Liao
Xu Jie Er - Wo Ke Yi Reng Shou
Guang Liang - Tong Hua, Tian Tang
CLOSER - Movie SoundTrack
Nelly Futardo - Try
Twins - Xia Yi Ge Tian Hou

=Tired man YawNz=

2005-04-23T10:10:00.000+08:00

Taken on 22 April 2004 @ Far East Plaza

Hmm...since long didnt take such complicated neoprint machine.. kekekeke.. Elaine was my long lost friend..or shd i put it onces my hp kept dropping elsewhere or happen to mishap i lost all their numbers.. surprisingly spore is so small we managed to meet up again.. the best part is when she did her pedicure in our shop, thats how we found each other.. lolz.. somemore is i do for her one keke... Met her up after i knock off at 8.30pm yesteday.. but because yesterday was short handed.. the crowd was mad..didnt ate the whole day man... work throughout..just woke up this morning to blog because yesterday was rather tired.. now still feeling tired wor...how i wish i need not work today hahaha...*dreaming*...while waiting for mi elaine went shopping luckily at 8.45pm i called her up saying im coming over to find her..arbo her pocket one big whole...hahah... then we went down to take neoprintz.. as earlier on she knock off at 5plus unlike mi came from woodlands all the way to meet mi in touch.. so touch.. lucky she went to buy the movie tickets first..arbo must watch midnight show.. then later i go work like vampire...lolz..We watched the movie at 9.45pm named INFECTION.. since long didnt watched Japanese show ever since dated deardear....kekeke.. seems like all japanese show are the same unlike DARK WATER.. no starting no ending..just for scare and laughter... but dunno why this show infection is more on gruesome... has the japanese director changed the style..Erm... wah.. buay tahan one thing is that dunno wats wrong with the guy sitted beside mi... went mad like one kind.. scream until so loud man and vibrate the whole seat... until i buay tahan look at him, then his galfriend kept apologising.. my goodness... i never been sitted in the cinema with someone beside mi which is a stranger who is than anyone i know to be so hyper and over reactive until that his gal friend couldnt help to control but to apologise.. lucky my mood wat good.. arbo the guy surely kana from mi... or shd i say lucky the movie wasnt jin cheng wu show.. lolz.. well well.. still very curious how the virus spread.. if anyone who has watch the show please enlighted mi.. well going get prepared for work.. arbo gonna be late moreover havent packed my bag yet.. coz tonight straight after work will be meeting deardear for dinner then meet the rest...

=New Born Babies=

2005-04-22T03:30:00.000+08:00

This Baby Is So Adorable, Isnt She Irresistable

This is a baby ger pic, cant image she was smiling so sweetly while sleeping, a new born baby on last friday wor..guess she will be a cheerful baby when u grows up, mummy pin a high hope on u wor, must be a good ger and treat mummy well yeah.. bet everyones sees her will be so delighted, seeing babies like her will make u feel brighten up not only that she is so adorable..Wah.. seems like this month is a good month for new born babies, my customer also just given birth to a baby ger, not only that dear dear eldest brother wife has just given birth today though its a premature baby but its a baby ger wor.. so upset couldnt get to c wor.. i wonder does the baby look as adorable as this baby of my friend??? guess next time go shopping we surely go children department section to buy beautiful stuffs for babies... so sweet isnt it.. adding on one of my ex collegue during chinese new year this year has given birth to a baby ger.. Guess if u hope to have a baby ger, must be in the year of chicken wor.. no la.. ever since last year goverment has implemented and asking our people to make more babies, i've been seeing so many pregnant ladies on the street..stomach so big... machim atomic bomb anything can give birth, see already also must give way to them wor...

Motherhood is the toughest man... women..women...i guess by the time i give birth to my first child will be 10 years down the road or even later, i hope not, latest by age 28 if not i rather not give birth.. im not going to have a age gap with my child man.. no way.... screamz... but being prepared to be a mother is so hard, responsiblities and commitments to ur child is so important spending quality time nuturing them to young ladies is when u c them grow.. they are ur precious... see babies really melt my heart...

Anyway, today was rather a relax day for mi i can say at work, because at late noon, it was so quiet at my workplace till evening... before i knock off, came to surprised mi was my dear dear... didnt expected he will make a trip down to fetch mi hme as this whole morning he was fishing with qiang the whole afternoon, went hme followed by thomson medical centre... didnt slept well last day after his eldest brother phone call at 4am...therefore never expected to c him at all today until sat @ ah meng celebration.. was delighted.... i've smiled sincerely again..dear, it reminds mi of the old times.. after ling send mi serveral songs last night, kept listening to Zhang jing xuan WU NENG WEI LI... not only that lately duno wats with mi kept listening to this brazillian singer Bebel Gilberto her songs were fantastic (in love with JaZZ), sly songs is another one i've been listening... lolz.. well its getting early... got to sleep coz waking up few hrs later for work...

****Dear dear, dun 4get to take pics of ur eldest bro precious ger for mi to c wor..must buy digital camera already.. have babies photos... kekeke

=StarrY StarrY NighT=

2005-04-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

Wah.....came back hme few hrs ago.. came online to chit chat as well to received songs.. lolz

Before heading out to meet ling, received dear's call shock mi when i was abt to msg him, surprisingly he woke up so early, just because zai zai call him ask him wanna go fishing anot.. hear fishing my dear awaken already.. seems like fishes are more important than mi.. hahaha.. but u musnt neglect mi wor.. if not i will bash u up one eh... read limei's blog just now realised she bought the digital camera that i ever wanted..envy envy she only bought it at $630 bucks so cheap compared to before... wanna go grab liao moreover got free memory card.. then can take pics.. then dear dear can take pics of his fishes ( 4 mi to C or shd i say for his collections) haiz.. but dear say i dun know how to appreciate fishing....then u must teach mi mah.. everything say i dunno... sob...anyway watched the movie name Creep with ling, she was so frightened in the cinema, her buttocks reaching the floor liao wor... with her hands on her face.. but after a while she was okiee... at least she didnt really scream.. lolz... the plot will be good if the writer had told has the motive of the killer as well as his past.. must be tragic yeah... some parts were gruesome...after that went rocher to eat beancurd & grassjelly followed chit chatting a while at tcc as well as order food my fav dish beef lagzana..yummy.. didnt drink coffee today coz wanted to go bed earlier as tml need to work.. sian whereby dear's off and rest day is tml and the next day.. envy guess he will fish again... anyway will get to c him soon.. going to watch my tvbee and c whether dear dear got call me before i go to bed as he will be quite busy at work...

=BorIng DayZ=

2005-04-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

THIS IS E PIC I ADORES......

Since long didnt update my blog.. therefore off today..got time to update.. well.. very sad especially yesterday.. wanted to go to bed earlier coz was really tired at work lately as well as my course at british council, but after taking my shower i saw a letter from my school mdis which means my RESULTS ARE RELEASED.. i just knew i would flung my advertising paper and yes i did.. my first time flung.. really heart pain.. but lucky dear still sounded supportive , i guess i need lots of support as well as encouragement especially from U! Thanks for yesterday or i shd say this morning msg when i woke up...ended up i thought i will sleep back but didnt.. perhaps im not used to sleeping so long hours ever since im being a workaholic and up with my courses.

Lately at work really sian... maybe i really try to hard... quarrel with my boss very fiercely until i broke down in tears, i really feel very hurt by the words she used that really hurt my integrity,dignity and my character. i really wish u will understand... i really need lot of patiences, concern (cos im a attention seeker) and moral support from u..im sorry if im being too sensitive lately, but sometimes its really hard to control emotions though i know u will do ur very best for my sake i hope u wouldnt give up and fulfil to ur promises.. u will right? That day i really hope that u would hold mi tightly and give mi a hug.. that was the day i needed u... :)

Last Week tue which is my off day..spend my lunch time with my insurance agent at holland having lunch at one thai restarant at Holland V, then we took off driving to Lavender for a short while then she drive mi bugis... wondering at bugis till 4pm then went bishan junction 8 to meet eileen, i reached there earlier therefore went browsing at E-base and spend money again bought two tops one is purple the other is brown more for casual for work....ling & i had dinner at thai express seems like that whole day i was eating thai food.. experiencing spice... lolz... waited for kimberly to knock off work then three of us went to town(lido addidas) to look for a top as ling couldnt find it in bishan then ling went hme as it was gonna rain heavily thunder strike!!! As for mi and kim quickly went to far east plaza to take cig from sal then we both quickly rush to goodwood park hotel for our massage as any point we will get drench moreover our massage appointment is from 8.30pm to 11pm their last customer... when we were abt to reach our destinition it was pouring extremely heavily, when we finally we both were drench lucky the reception gave us towels to dry ourselves followed by a cup of hot tea while we were enjoying our cig before going in for our scrub and massage... guess our next trip we will be taking pics of our massage rooms very good atmosphere.. that day fogotten to take pics.. lolz...

Well..well.. sat which was the 16 i had the full day workshop together with faisal at british council, was rather interesting nt only that it teaches us to provoke our thinking skills make mi burn out so much cells.. hahaha.. while taking the test faisal so funny.. his listening skills got some problem.. make mi laugh so much.. he better dig his ears before the examination if not surely blur blur.. lecturer was frm the UNITED KINGDOM, i noticed that his nose was so sharp and stiff... so weird but overall his appearances is okiee... but to mi quite funny his nose... lolz though he talks like a train but i managed to get him, perhaps last time i used to talk like this whereby my friends cant catch mi hahaha... had a wonderful day at the workshop... then ended up strolling at town alone... when to find eileen at her workplace coz very sian.. then went back to my dear's house to wait for him knock off work supposely we wanted to catch a movie but i guess im partially exhausted with long working hours and workshop not only that he might be tired after his work therefore we postponed till 29 which will be my last day of my exams therefore its a full day.. well... it has been really long we didnt had a proper date alone together.. so hoping for 29 to come.. BUT............

C.. this is wat happens when i havent been blogging lately... started to write long stories.. hahaha.. anyway now i've decided to sign up for nail art courses therefore the course will only start at june if not wrong.. then my sub paper for advertising is on 11 june at changi so far.. got to pay 60 bucks for it all in all... wah laoz... i am so disappointed in myself... everything also screwed up whether in relationships, work or school... i deserved it man.. ruin everything in my own hands...

Dun talk abt unhappy things already... gonna place some pics of my fav here.. so suave lor... my gift for my dear whether christmas present or birthday present he will definitely received products from this brands.. so u shd know now what i will get for u next time if there is presents to come.... kekekeke... anyway its good products so no harm using it.. kekeke

=Latest Updates on my Beloved Takeshi Kaneshiro=

2005-04-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

Awww.. this pic is one of his latest commerical in this year 2005 on biotherm... so handsome and cool.. adding on to it this is also his latest hairstyle, his fringe is long... so man.. this commerical has pictures taken as posters were mainly black and white.. i simply love him on black and white pics.. its so natural.. its him.. its reveal his innerself... his character... Gosh... more...more...

SCREEN SHOTS OF HIS NEW MOVIEW" PERHAPS LOVE" THIS 2005

TK's new project: Musical film(12/1/2004) Hong Kong director Peter Chan Ho Sun will produce a HK$60 million Hollywood style musical film PERHAPS LOVE with Takeshi Kaneshiro (Gum Sing Mo) and Zhou Xun. PERHAPS LOVE will start production within the month and shoot on location in Beijing and Shanghai. Reportedly for this musical, Chan Ho Sun went to India to meet with the famous local choreographer Farih Khan in hopes of hiring the master to be the film's choreographer. Although neither Gum Sing Mo nor Zhou Xun are singers, both have released records in Taiwan and China. They have interested and certain knowledge in music. With the Indian choreography master they will conceivably set off sparks. Chan Ho Sun admitted that the film will start production and he has contacted both Zhou Xun and Gum Sing Mo. PERHAPS LOVE is a love triangle story. The key figure who will be between Gum Sing Mo and Zhou Xun will be Jacky Cheung Hok Yau.

RUMORS FROM PAST TILL NOW LOVELY AINT THEY?

PICTURES OF MY BELOVED JIN CHENG WU

=Monday Blues=

2005-04-05T03:49:00.000+08:00

Well Well, had a hard time crawling up on bed today as it was raining extremely heavily wat a nice weather to laze on bed... finally pulled myself up at 10.40am..after washing up took a light breakfast and log on to my computer... guess wat... received this msn message from Ian.. he jolly well have the chick to ask mi he will come over my place to drive mi to work since its raining heavily.. my goodness this type of person also have... have gf liao still so playful..GROW UP MAN...after that i took a cab to work.. managed to get to my workplace at 1.30pm.. OOopss was late for work.. Hehehe.. but boss today not ard so its okie.. moreover its really raining heavily mah... definitely will kana O.T from her this whole month.. adding on to it im just a permant part timer no commitments... hahaha.. today was rather relax at work, boss not in no stress.. kekeke.. during my working hrs today went for a few smoke break with my new collegue Zovial... very tall eh... dunno why boss employ ppl getting taller and taller.. im short man... but zovial's height can fight with meibao wor... lolz... Hehehe..after doing my customer i went to shop a while at chaos and my friend's shop... bought in total 4 tops and 1 dress wor.. the flora dress was bought at chaoz... OOOpss... Shhh... thats one advantage of working ard far east plaza go shopping got discount... arbo where can spend so much... but some shops still very stingy would give discount eh... finished work at 8.30pm, quickly rush to Paragon Swarovski to get my pair of starfish earrings which is want i ever wanted to had to match my starfish necklance... but it was the last piece as all outlet are sold out coz they only carry a few pieces.. dunno why buy things also kana last piece dunno whether isit a good thing or bad thing neh...hmm... eyeing on the bangle that i saw on Swarovski but when i try it on, the width was kinda of too big for mi... therefore must wait for their next collection which only arrived on sept 2005.. lolz... help mi save money sia.. tml is finally my off day.. happie wor.. but gotta wake up early to get things done wor.. well..well... end here for today lor.. night.......... *griNz*

=Thurday feeling Pink Peace=

2005-04-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

Erm..hmm.. where shd i start off... lately went shopping alone bought one black dress which is quarter sleeve..rarely can feel that and e type of material but again its always the last piece.. aiyooo.. my luck in buying things somehow sway always got the last piece..but wat to do i like it..This morning while heading to work, walk pass mango saw the display a skirt so girly but i like it wor.. see when i got my pay go try and perhaps will get it though i hardly wear skirt firstly due to my work secondly due to mi not being ladylike lolxxxx.. well... feeling rather peaceful today ba.. maybe becoz this mth is going to end and looking forward to a new mth.. not only that maybe see eileen and ying make a great differences...they do make mi smile....... kekekeke... blahing..blahing... hopefully when kim is back we shall set a time to go massage and shopping spree...m yuPpies.. looking forward.. well i wanna go watch my tv and Zzzz.. tml still got to work.. to mi my off day is = to no off day wor... must get away from this urban singapore... *wishIng Upon The Stars* *pRaY*

=Love Hurts, No More Tears=

2005-03-31T02:50:00.000+08:00

My goodness... why am i blogging at this hr instead of going to bed? Ever since the past two weeks the peaceful side of mi finally surfaced... i told him that im tired, i gave up on this relationship.... things aint turning as good as it gets.. right now... today he finally bursted out at mi, and yet i was calm no more shouting no more yelling towards him... i had enough of those times...where has the LOVE & PASSION GONE?? Give mi a break... when u always gave mi hope, u destroyed it thoroughly, and when i stop giving myself hope, u turn back to mi doing mi good... is that wat love is abt? Im tired...really tired in getting myself hurt, loving someone else more than he does... since i cant give u happiness nor bring u happiness yet sorrow.. i'll leave... therefore the concluding statement after 1.09am 31 march 05, wait till you have sorted out ur feelings and thoughts then u let mi know wat u really wan...in my life im thoroughly a utter failure in relationships.. i can never understand wat guys really needs, and to him he can never understand wat i really wanted.. but its simple... afterall, i wan to be a simple, naive girl whereby people will like mi dote mi... who do not wish to be love but seems like i cant be... im too dominant... im MCP...too stubborn headed...being too defensive( this is because i wan to protect where i stand, i dun wan to lose it).. i fail to understand the needs of guys... especially him but so does he understand my needs... u deserve someone else better than me... if there is no turning back.. then i shall thank u for the happy times that u had given mi during our countership.. coz u are the first who treated mi to make mi feel comfortable, reliable , at ease whereby i can feel peace b4 bed...and someone who i ever thought of spending my time to grow old with u together... ...... tears did rolled down...

=It's Part & Parcel of Life=

2005-03-31T02:22:00.000+08:00

I've finally ended my misery of my school graduation presentation on 29th March 2005 at 5pm.... Surprised.. my lecturer praise mi for my presentation and told mi that i should speak up loud so i can be a born leader, people who dare not speak up for themselves will not success in life.. lolx... to some of my lecturer i seem to be quite a low profile one ...lolz.. that mE.. Im ShY at times too.. after presentation as usual, myself,me and myself, went shopping and chilled out at PS and guess wat bought myself two necklace and met ARABELLA... so surprised and happie.. and i really hope to see her again, as well as hope she will be a happier person and must be happy.. and wishing that her baby boy will be a healthy and good baby... really wish she and Jun Jie =HappY FamilY= watever she do must go on smoothly... will miss u always...
Hmm.. eileen... i also wan to see u happy wor.. i really wan all my friends ard mi to be a happier person not to suffer any pain whether in studies, career, families or relationship... all must be Xing Fu wor... No more tears, no more hurt,no more sadness,no more sorrows,no more Haiz and Sighing... seems like ying is a xing fu xiao nu ren now wor.....

=Its aLL abT UnderstaNding Mi=

2005-03-30T02:10:00.000+08:00

You scored as Utilitarianism. Your life is guided by the principles of Utilitarianism: You seek the greatest good for the greatest number.

“The said truth is that it is the greatest happiness of the greatest number that is the measure of right and wrong.”
--Jeremy Bentham

“Whenever the general disposition of the people is such, that each individual regards those only of his interests which are selfish, and does not dwell on, or concern himself for, his share of the general interest, in such a state of things, good government is impossible.”
--John Stuart Mill

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70%

Kantianism

50%

Existentialism

35%

Strong Egoism

30%

Hedonism

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Apathy

10%

Nihilism

10%

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=Friday Its My Off Day=

2005-03-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

Today.. slept at 4.25am yesterday.. woke up 1.45pm but was lazing ard till abt 2plus... my galfriend called.. then need to forward her somethings and realised that i havent been checking my yahoo account.. and found out that my dear shaoyi... was actually the one who found me the things that i wanted which i wrote it on my blog last year nov 2004 and send mi on jan 14 2005 and i didnt realise it till today.. was shocked and was touched.. didnt expected.. thanks DEARIE for ur effort.. really happy lor.. guess today will be nua-ing and doing my project for my presentation on march 29...

*Suppose to go ah meng shop with my galfriend today one.. but i too tired and nua liao.. see when ba.. lolz..

*Today i was shocked after i saw the email and was puzzled but happie...

*Guess later if i finished doing parts of my projects i will be going to town to jalan jalan then watch movie ba.. no Life..............

* No mood to blog today....ever since i saw ur email u send mi dear i was not in a correct mood i guess i felt guilty thats why.. sorrie

=God Bless Joreen=

2005-03-10T16:16:00.000+08:00

Jo & Him : Hopefully... we can be back like before... wat u msg mi on 04/03/05 4.20am.
Jo & Him : Thanks for ur watch.. i really like it like wat u say to mi on 06/03/05 12.36pm.

Early 7pm... Wake Up to send Karen off..Cold man

Recently me.. everyday get up as usual rush to work.. Boring life.. Praying real hard not to get sub paper therefore i could graduate before my birthday october 2005 this year wor... life is tough man.. work and study is no joke... at times how i wish i could fly like a bird..

faizal my broz.. we both will be enrolling to British Council starting April 16.. Classmates back again..

Nu@: *^_^*Joreen*^_^*

Nu@: 10/03/05--> loved my job scope still, especially after wat my last customer named Ong had said to me.. hope to see her soon next time.. p@ssion in me stayz. *winKz*

Nu@: Must watch the movie CLOSER, good plot..

Nu@: Feel tired at times which i dun feel like talking...

Nu@: Sometimes i wish u could hold mi like i wanted the way it is..

Last Gathering~~

2005-03-10T15:18:00.000+08:00

I've Uploaded the Pics b4 our Dearest Karen's Departure.. Seems Like A last Dinner...
http://photos.yahoo.com/koichi_domoto22

Ever since she left, i havent heard from her nor received her sms, therefore i supposed she is busy settling down as well as prepare for her school.. but no worries i will definitely try contacting u, onces i've settled and sorted out fully with my graduation project yeah.. a promise my dear... not onlee that i hope u will fufil your promise in coming back this August 2005, we all will be waiting as well as missing u dearly... ur love...

Im back Blogging~~~

2005-03-10T14:48:00.000+08:00

Meibao & Qiang
http://photos.yahoo.com/koichi_domoto22
* the pics are under the same album...
I've uploaded the rest of the pics.. OOopz.. it has been a zillion years i've said i wanted to do so.. but no time leh moreover im working and rushing out my gp.. PARDON me.. yeah.. And now im back to blog.. so i shall slowly update my blog and pics.. kekeke

=Projects All settled+Sick Me+Packed working Schedule+Examinations coming up=

2005-01-13T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, went to see doctor yesterday b4 meeting aaron at our school nearby kopitiam... the doctor seems so frustrated with mi, and so am i.. coz dec i sick till now leh, still havent fully recover wanna die liao.. damn suffering... on medication again lor.. the doctor was supposed to give mi 4 days MC for mi to rest at hme, yet i rejected then he kept saying the first time u came n find mi during Dec i gave u two days MC u also rejected, second time also, coz he say without rest i cant recover fully, he say no matter how many doctors i go if i didnt rest it will make things worst only.. aiYooo.. but wat to do, i got responsibility for work as well... kekeke.. but he said if my throat still on and off like that then if it gets sore and develop a lump inside i must go operation to remove it liao leh.. sobb.. somemore he ask mi not to talk too much.. blah.. blah.. humph.. ke lian leh.. eating 8 types of medication 3 times a day...today didnt go school leh.. coz my head was rather heavy coz i guess im not feeling well mah thats the main CAUSE.. but later got to go prepare for work.. niao.. niao..

Talking abt the KL trip.... Our trip sux lor.. due to the people over there, so rude lor.. we nearly kana ban from the custom from entering the state of malaysia and kl never again.. ended up still must apologise to the custom.. so fucked up... somemore she dun deserve to be apologise... i look down on her man (BI SHI)... somemore on our way back also met a reasonable person.. kept diaoing and gining at mi leh.. as if im the one like that.. buay tahan.. if im not with shaoyi, guess im gonna give her a SLAP on her bloody idiotic face man.. ( if my character was like last time) wahahhaa...PEOPLE OVER THERE ARE SIMPLY SO RUDE.. NO MANNERS AT ALL...

COMPLAINT!!

When we reach there the hotel was worst than Singapore hotel 81, as well as the motels over there man, BQ was like saying he was feeling so fortunate and felt that Singapore Hotel 81 was so high class at the moment.. wahahha.. somemore the room is so DIRTY... lots of XIAO QIANG.. scaring MB to death wor.. disgusting right..Then i kept complaining to shaoyi that why on earth ur choice FURAMA why dun ur take SWISS INN instead my goodness.. then both BQ and shaoyi say coz aaron's gf gt stay here b4.. on that night thur or wed while they were booking the hotel, i actually told shaoyi say i dun wan to take furama hotel coz surely very jialatt then he said to mi aiya nevermind la... i told him take swiss inn la.. then he say book liao la.. then i zip.. then BQ say coming back to singapore wanna confront aaron saying abt his recommendation on furama hotel... and when i was aaron in school, while chatting with him.. then realise he did ask ur to take SWISS INN, its just that THE BOTH OF U SHAOYI & BQ didnt want to listen to him and both of ur decided on FURAMA... arGh... angryYYyy.... *KNOCK UR TWO HEADS*

KL TRIP PHOTOS UPLOADED

2005-01-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

These are only half of our pics taken at KL, waiting for the rest so i can upload at the page.. hope u guess enjoys the pics and feel free to give comments hehe.. this is the link of the pics http://photos.yahoo.com/koichi_domoto22

As for the trip journey.. i will update on my blog onces ive completed with my projects yeah..

=Brand New Year of 2005=

2005-01-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

This is the proof that Mei Bao and Bing Qiang took McDonald breakfast
at Boon Keng... Shaoyi and Joreen Mao Shan so the penalty is you two owe
us 4 meal each on anything. This is what you two agree...

Sobzz... Wat a BIG PIC.. meibao send mi on mms.. coz after that KTV with u guys.. on the cabby with bing qiang and meibao.. we suppose to have breakfast at mac donald, meeting downstairs at 830.. but when dear and i reached hme... after bathing we were rather awake then we watch tv till 5 plus nearly six.. then suddenly my dear said.. Hey going to six already better go sleep wait cant wake up for breakfast.. dunno why i guess we both were too shag out... didnt even hear alarm.. normally i put alarm i will wake up one leh... but unexpectionally.. sob.. next time better use dear phone to make alarm coz mine very soft... then in the morning nearly 10am.. dear suddenly woke mi up and say its time for breakfast then we realised my GOODNESS.. its 10am... followed by he returning bing qiang call.. sob... 1st jan 2005 leh... blah... blah.. i really must have been to tired if not couldnt be alarm ring so long never hear one... :(

Then at least shd tabao for us mah.. no mac donald breakfast leh...

Ke Lian leh mi and my dear.......

=Holiday Mood+ New Year is Arriving=

2004-12-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

"Never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can take it, never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go."

HoooOooo... Eve of Xmas till nOw Im Feeling Much Lighter N a Happier Person now... Everything seems to get back to normal... kekekeke *Smile* Hopefully.. it will go on smoothly... This year iS bad for Me... Xtremely long N Tiring Roller Coaster Ride In RelationsHips... Health No Good Neither... On N Off on Medication... in Few Days timE.. a Brand New Year Is Arriving "2005" Hurray.. It will Definitely be a Better Year For me..

Not Only That iM Graduating.. therefore my load will be lighter..coz onlee concentrating on work... but on dilemna still.. coz i love my job scope now as a Manicurist.. im enjoying wat im doing.. but does passion give mi a stability is another different issues.. everyone has to go through different stages in life... but i still not willingly to give up in my line as an Manicurist yet.. but yet... perhaps perhaps.. have to get on with life to get a stable and proper job... arGh.... BLah..Blah....

After New Year... goNNa Rush for projects liao.. Date line for my Print Media is 6th Jan, Public Relations is 11th Jan and lastly advertising is on 12th Jan... wouldnt be working that much for my first week of jan 2005.. then my Dear Birthday & His Buddy birthday on 9th Jan... havent even gotten present yet.. yet having field trip on 7th jan wah.. see my schedule so tight i havent included my work schedule.. time is definitely not Enough for Me.. Money As Well i Guess.. Wahahhahaha.. Where got ppl say money is Ever EnouGH...

Hmmm.. lets talk abt how was my Xmas Eve as well as Xmas Day... Each year getting from bad to worst in terms of atmosphere... no one seems to be in the high spirits as before... erm... Xmas eve.. woke up, wash up, surf internet, bath, went to purchase a christmas log cake at sweet secrets then took a cabby down to my workplace.. started work at 1230 to 630.. customers on that day are damn fussy.. irritates my nerves.. dunno why on festival seasons all of them started to have ingrowth in their toes nails... argh.. waste alot of my time doing on one customers... but since its xmas eve..... err... what to do.. at 6pm then we cut the log cake...surprising my dear took the effort to pick mi up after work without mi knowing.. so surprise and happiee... very long didnt feel that way already wor.. dear... then followed by went shopping at far east plaza to get a top of the rack... then went his place to have dinner then went to Suntec to meet the rest aaron, ah meng, meibao, bingqiang, zhicong, bernie, zaizai... wah zhicong hair really like RAMBUTAN COLOUR EH... Goodness somemore his eyebrow very thick and black dun suits his hair.. still prefer his black... must trim his eyebrow.. so UNTIDY... ah.... went hme at 2 plus.. slept at 3plus...

Christmas Day... my dear.. woke up so late.. i woke up 1pm.. hoping he will wake up earlier then we can go jalan jalan coz.. i very long didnt go jalan jalan with him already.. he so busy with work and over obessed with his bed than me.. *SOBz* then by the time he woke up i even finished my lunch cum breakfast.. read finished two stacks of newspaper and watch tv while waiting for him to be awake.. and finally at 4 plus he is AWAKE.. wash up.. bath.. change left house at 5plus.. went downstairs his house coffee shop makan then 630 then finally get to town.. at first went lido trying to get tickets to watch Meet The Fockers but its was fully occupied... then walk to cathay cineleisure.. town as so crowded machim ants walking... but luckily it was evening.. its not surely sweating... stinko... finally got the tickets at cathay and surprising managed to get couple seats... then went to hunt for my christmas gift... too bad cant find... coz my watch i wanted is limited edition spore onlee 3 pieces.. then wanted to buy jewellery but went to lee hwa, aspiral,spooke,poh heng,and a few more shops yet none of the designs i like... so we decided to have dinner... we finally settle down at Heeren NYDC for dinner followed by movie then Hme...

Pleasantly smooth and peaceful christmas...

Gonna stop here.. its getting late.. gonna to watch my tvbee and my dreamland coz tml schooling full day.. Merry Belated Christmas to u Guys... *KareN* Merry CHristmas> miss u.. hope to hear frm u soon... muacks and goodnight everyone

By the way.. ppl who have time do drop by to watch Meet the Fockers.. its Hilarious.. i truly enjoyed the show....

Xmas Eve

2004-12-25T09:17:00.000+08:00

Today is the eve of xmas..yet im awake so early now is onlee 9.17am in the morning.. i shd be sleeping now and get ready for work.. i worked up just because just to see one msg from my dear.. yet in disappointment.. i dunno what to say already..

I never ever will woke up in the morning that is so bad till i feel tears in my heart lor.. i dunno whats going on... i really wanna know... no matter how hard to give in seems like things are getting from bad to worst.. i really feel very lost lor... this month is worst than hell.. i really on the verge to give up... can someone pull mi out from it...

I still recall last year eve of xmas, i was so excited and happy.. things are no longer like before..i really cannot go on like this for long.. its really too heavy for mi to carry this burden.. everyday i wasnt happy anot lor.. i tried to buried myself in work to make myself happy.... its wasnt the usual mi already... i really very DEVASTED already.. i really envy people ard mi that their beloved ones treated them good... everyone seems so happy ard mi... do cherish wat u have before its really too late.. i really cherish alot on this relationship..i really cant bear to give up but do u know how hard i was anot...... lost....... Lost. Tearz......... why must u keep flaring up and scolding mi for nothing.. what have i really done wrong.. why must u keep venting anger on me for nothing.. u know how i feel anot.. im a human i have feelings somemore im ur galfriend.. u know how badly u hurt mi each day anot.. if u no longer feel for mi or nor longer love me.. just let go of me... sad...................xtremely sad...................

2004-12-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

..
Aiyooo..... wats up with mi.. still sick leh.. very ke lian.. xtremely sway month for mi~~ I HATE THIS MONTH.. next year will be a better year... cant wait for 2005 to come... kekeke.. though every year passes by so fast...

Very gloomy leh... without my dear with me.. really miss him alot lor.. and learn alot through this year.. lots of ups and downs but now is over... but we people should not learn to be greedy.. we definitely cannot have the best of both worlds... there is no absolute... u onlee can choice one only... see my dear working non stop... see liao heart pain eh..

i still have so many things uncompleted very sian and sick of doing it eh.. how like that.. i need the drive and motivation to move on further... ah....

=Sick Joreen=

2004-12-12T11:27:00.000+08:00

Wah...buay tahan already eh.. sick since last week till now, my voice change till machim guy leh.. kana suan by some person.. u should know who u are.. then havent been sleeping well and eating well lately..but work still can la.. coz money issue leh... but i stop doing my project leh.. thats one thing.. so if tml is still as bad i guess i better consult my family doctor.. onces sick really jialatt case.. dunno whether is it the weather or wat leh... sore got problem but leads to alot of issue leh.. might be infection ba.. but guess wat.. i havent been smoking since 4th Dec till now wor.. miracle isit.. my body starts to reject it.. dunno leh.. yesterday sick still can go shopping with my collegue after work... bought quite alot of stuffs.. then i guess tml before i go consult doctor i will go find Chris at Ang Mo Kio to get my rebonding down.. then if january need to touch up then i do together with colour again.. but if wanna do trimming and treatment must come back holland get it done.. very problematic hor.. haiyo.. thats the case.. well got to end of here for now.. got to prepare for work.. NEXT WEEK I WANNA WATCH OCEAN TWELVE, AND GONNA WATCH ON THE 18 DEC.. So Dun Disappoint Me Kay, U Say U R Gonna Watch With Me Dun Fu Yan Me Hor If Not I Will Be Xtremely Upset... GOLDEN VILLAGE HAVING PROMOTION FROM 17 & 18 DEC WATCH OCEAN ELEVEN CONTINUED BY OCEAN TWELVE ONE TIMING IS 2305 THE OTHER IS 0205 IF NOT WRONG THEN FREE FLOW OF POPCORN AND DRINKS.. cool right this promotion they have...

=Fate & Retribution=

2004-12-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

Damn sway these past few days.. firstly is wisdom tooth aching, followed by fever and sore throat i guess dunno what is happening to my throat or is it my body immune system going to break down.. but my sales at work pretty good wor... though im down with all this shit.. Wah.. the weather now is really terrible... rain non stop leh.. but shiok to sleep la.. kekeke..

Ever since, my relationship was a downfall tremendously..things wasnt intact at all.. though there is too many hidden agenda and left unspoken.. i guess we all know it well deep inside us.. are things gonna to really work out.. to be there is too much uncertain doubts.. as well as uncertaintly.. i wasnt any happier than before.. yet my burden has be coming heavier and more unbearable.. i dunno sigh.. i guess im not meant to be in love..my love life hasnt been good and yet brought troubles to the other party..so many people is asking me abt my the other party why i no need to spend time with him one? why everyday i work.. why didnt i stay at his place? everyday i just have to pretend that im very happy..nothing has ever before... then all the answers i gave wor no la.. he was busy with his work and tired therefore never meet at all etc.. i really dun wish to carry on like this..

My Poor Nails

2004-12-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

Wah.. its has been ages i havent been updating my blog and telling u guys how have i been.. well..well.. terribly busy with work though im a permanent part time but im working everyday more than a full timer thats why by the time im hme im too shag out.. somemore everyday schooling wor.. havent started on my projects.. very angry with myself therefore im going to start tonight since i managed to knock off early today..

Sunday the 5th Dec after work, went shopping with my boss and my dearie collegue Siti..she bought gifts for us for christmas present.. so happy.. choice ur own present wor any amount also can.. OOopss!!~~ The followed by going SWENSON makan dinner or should i say SUPPER.. wahhahah.. the queue at swenson so long starve to death somemore that day was extremely busy lor then morning till night didnt eat thats why she scared im gonna faint then she have to send mi home.. wahhaha...

Tueday the 7th Dec.. today at work damn relaxed and gonna be bored to death leh... so today finally did my eyebrows and pedicure so SHORT WOR MY NAILS, never had been so short in my 19 years of life eh.. but wat to do if dun cut my nails i cant wear my new shoe i bought.. so excited to wear it.. and guess wat my nails are full of nail art to cover up the shortness.. all thanks to my new collegue Jenny.. love her man.. muack muack..

Since 4th Dec which is a sat till now... my love life sux... never has been good ever since september.. though i maybe upset but what can i do.. i simply feel so HOPELESS and HELPLESS wor..

MING KU wor.. find someone who can love u and grow old with u, is so hard.. why cant i be blessed to find someone who will give mi the best of everything and love me forever.. i guess there is no love forever thats why...

*HATE LIARS

*HATE EMPTY PROMISES

*HATE BETRAYAL

*HATE JEALOUSLY

*HATE BEING CHEATED

*HATE MY LOVE TO PUT IN MORE THAN 100% in LVE

*HATE UNTRUTHFULNESS

*HATE PEOPLE TO HIDE THE TRUTH FROM MI

*HATE PEOPLE NOT CONFESSING THE WRONG DOINGS

*HATE TO FIND OUT FACTS THAT HURT ME DEEPER AND DEEPER AGAIN AND AGAIN

*HATE MYSELF

Jie Kou

fan zhe wo men de zhao pianxiang nian ruo ying nuo quanqu nian de dong tianwo men xiao de hen tiankan zhe ni ku qi de liandui zhe wo shuo zai jianlai bu ji ting jianni yi zhou de hen yuanye xu ni yi jing fang qi woye xu yi jing hen nan hui touwo zhi dao shi zhi ji cuo guoqing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wojiu shuan shi wo bu dong neng bu neng yuan liang wo qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiuwo zhi dao jian chi yao zoushi ni shou shang de jie kouqing ni hui touwo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui houjiu shuan mei you jie guowo ye neng gou cheng shouwo zhi dao ni de tong shi wo gei de cheng moni shuo gei guo wo cong rongcheng mo shi ying wei bao rongru guo yao zhouqing ni ji de wo

=Its Sunday Morning=

2004-11-28T10:50:00.000+08:00

Morning to everyone.. erm... slept at six and woke up nine plus.. thats too incredible for me to do such a thing.. wahahaha.. Wah, yesterday at work busy like MAD work from morning till closing till i met Aaron,Limei,Jingz & Weiming then managed to makan Mac Donald.. Sob... Sob... somemore i was the last to leave at work yesterday... Blah... So decided to go slightly later for work.. hehe... Watch the movie "SHUTTER", to me its rather a comedy show more to a scary show.. but jingz kana scared when he wasnt concentrating.. wahhahah heard from limei after the show saying that the people in front kept using their jacket to cover and Aaron was complaining that behind them those people very noisy ah.. as for ME throughout the show i was fine.. kekeke.. but overall i would prefer the movie "SAW" than "SHUTTER" but i do pity the gal who was dead in the show.. ke lian ah...but she resemble like someone wor though it was a thai film..Got two more movies i wanna watch one is "OCEAN TWELVE" by Brad Pitt & Bridget Jones Dairy a very gal movie i can say... but i was wondering the movie "BIRTH" by Nicole Kidman was kinda of interesting as well.. Hmmm... seems like besides watching movie, schooling,eating,nua-ing,working i have nothing more to do.. sian ah...

Ya...i need to get a bag man.. so hard to find a bag which is big enough to contain all my stuffs..but this time round i wanna get a rectangle one...

Namie Amuro New Song Is Out few weeks ago GIRL TALK

Wah... i wanna read my I-weekly i still havent open.. goodness.. my jin cheng wu..

Saw two nice top at Little Match Girl might be considering one of it instead of buying two!~

Christmas Eve i will be very lonely wor.. ur better jio me out... dun always left me aside.. keep mi inform yeah.. but im working.. so please include me for dinner..

Jingz flying off with his 50kg luggage... after the show we kept making the joke out of his saying when he is back he must weigh let us see he got overweight like 150kg if not he is carrying someone on his back.. so funny they make it after watching SHUTTER.. imagination went wild..

Alright..im now gonna to bath and prepare for work..

2004-11-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

*scream* Jin Cheng Wu

Hush... Just came back from school & work..hmm..havent been updating my blog for serveral days wor.. too shag already.. Yesterday was the MOST tiring day for me.. msging my dear halfway, ending up holding my cellphone throughout the night..coz wanted to wait for his msg..hurhur..my life is rather dull now... work and study and thinking of how to earn more money... hopefully after my TWENTIES, my life will be stable... life is so unpredictable.. so surprise to sweet my sweetie meibao on EARLY THURSDAY MORNING while heading to school.. Hehe.. must be very fortunate now hor u.. very happy for u...

Previous days, I'm totally SCREWED up at my workplace.. working with girls in the same environment so much PROBLEM.. no matter how hard i try, people either take advantage of me or wanna find fought with mi.. so unbearable u know how stressful to work under such enviroment.. HOW.... i sob..sob... There is so much i wanted to say, but i hold back coz it gets really tired... there is so much i would wan to share with my dearie shaoyi, yet when i see him, he also has lots of problems and stuffs to handle yet he himself hold back in telling me, seeing him without havent a single conversation throughout the night was more than enough for me.. but if he would open up more i would be more than happier... See my darling shaoyi like getting thinner leh.. how can ??? And seems like im gaining weight am i??? goodness so stressful argh..

Want to get a digital camera which coz 800 bucks the PANASONIC LUMIX can anyone give comments on that whether is it good anot?? Aiming for that camera since 2003 when it was launch in Japan endorse by Ayumi Hamasaki.. now then came Spore nia.. AperNi...

Wanna watch the movies, Ocean Twelve,Bridget Jones Dairy & Shutter... leh... Anyon

Bought I-weekly since thursday yet havent even start reading it got my FAVOURITE TAKESHI KANESHIRO JIN CHENG WU wor... * As Charming As Before* *Melted*

One of my regular customer today gave mi her namecard..her post is as a Business Development Manager working in Royal Plaza Singapore on Scotts hotel the hotel near PACIFIC PLAZA & beside DFS...That hotel seems highclass leh never been there beforethen she told me if i need room for valentine's day or special occassion she can get for me using her priviledge and stay for FOC wor.. additionally she told me that whatever is in the mini-fridge like beer,drinks whatever u drink is FOC too.. therefore i assume should be quite expensive ba..wonder hows the atmosphere like??? she damn nice lor towards me lor... always come back for me to do her nails *Winks* This type of customers i pamper them alot one wor.. wahahha...

=HAIRDRESSING SALON=

Hmmm... ever since SHUJI MATSUO SALON has been a success it started opening a new franchise named J-POP ICON machim the same style like TONI & GUY which open the franchise.. but my customers told mi that at PARAGON near HEEREN side SHUJI MATSUO DIRECTOR of cutting and trimming ur hair cost u at least $75 bucks and more but the style is my soft and nice wor.. seen a few samples of my customers hair.. so envy therefore they told mi is worth trying out.. COOL isnt it~~!!

=FASHION ZONE=

Talking about fashion can anyone tell me where is the shop HUSHUSH located at BUGIS JUNCTION, i simply cant find it.. i wanna go there see the bags and clothes..originated from JAPAN selling range of children clothes till adults.. and lots of cuttie stuffs, but since i cant find it i can forget abt going but good news is that TAKASHIMAYA NGEE ANN CITY at B2 is opening on 1st DEC so hopefully i can get down there to do some shopping provided i have the time.. Quite famous lor this shop coz its one of the recommendations showed on television..

*BUT MY DEAR DUN LET ME SPEND MONEY..HURHUR...

*HAVENT BEEN PAMERING MYSELF WOR...SOBSOB...

*I NEED A PEDICURE BADLY AS WELL BEFORE CHRISTMAS...

*AIMING AT A PAIR OF BOOTS ALREADY...

*Dear........

*Everything dun turn out right for me especially this month had soon much quarrelling with Dear,*SHAOYI* make him and myself so upset * REGRETED* Work also... Ming Ku Ah.. *miss U dearly*

=Heart Aching=

2004-11-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

I dunno how i have found you,

But im thankful, that i had,

When i first know u, its the best memories,

Thank you for letting mi having sweet memories,

I still remember your first time saying the word "I LOVE YOU"

But in life, there are sorrows and unhappiness as well,

But i really try very hard to forget all the unhappiness,

Yet no matter how hard i tried, it ended up coming back,

I hate myself being emotional,sensitive,impulsive and selfish

But its because i'm scare of losing u, therefore i had become like this

Love is selfish, unconditionally..

Im sorry if i've hurt u, or done u wrong,

I've said to u this before, onces hurt its hurt, onces i step on the wrong stone,

I know i have to face the consequences, therefore no matter what i say to u,

U will never forget what i've said or done towards u

In my heart i can no longer hold inside, sorrows are built bit by bit, accumulating everyday

I cannot go on forever like this, but i will definitely wait

But please dun let mi wait too long, waiting is the toughest and heart aching to do

Im having sleepless nights, even nightmares of you,waking up having tears in my eyes

All the love i used to find,

I will always rememeber till the very end, coz i really hope you could grow old with me

But i guess this statement can no longer be valid,

Even i try to hang on tightly, and never try to let go,

Im too afraid that one day u try to break free from it,

By then im gonna lost everything, not a single hope

Hoping there's a guiding light to bring me hopes

In the world, I could feel the emptiness without u,

When you said out, i'm really torn, hurt to deep

I know i have ruined it myself, therefore i've to pay a price for it

Forgiveness?

Lastly, Im Sorry,

Hope you will find ur happiness :)

=What a topic=

2004-11-23T18:08:00.000+08:00

Since last week till now feeling so stressed and depressed...therefore didnt know what to write on blog... work like mad since last wed till sunday.. damn shag out..woke up this morning at 7pm whole body aching man.. came back from school took a nap..just woke up only.. everything dun seems right for me especially this month lor.. how like that? Work becoming stressful due to recent complaints from customers...Relationship dun seems as good as it can be...School..projects are handled all out..got to start working on it soon.. Whole lots of things for me... got to endure till next year till its over..hmmm.. wanna watch the movie SHUTTER leh after hearing all the comments..but no one seems to be willing to watch with mi... ask my galfriends all say i should know they wouldnt watch such scary show.. why all my galfriends around me so timid one... im not saying that im brave or wat.. but they simply can be freaked out easily.. is this one of the women's human nature? Therefore women seems to need to be protected from man.. wahhahah...

My Dearie birthday coming soon after Limei's birthday wor... Meibao wor.... Bing Qiang gal..this coming Saturday.. hopefully she wouldnt be working on her birthday.. wondering is bing qiang celebrating with her.. *Thinking in Process* wonder what is bing qiang giving her as birthday gift.. *Thinking* *Grinzz* kekeke.. quite sometime didnt catch up with her whether meeting or chatting on phone.. hope to hear from u soon.. Hope everything is good for u eh.. whether work or school coz u starting school real soon..

=Arghhh Yawn=

2004-11-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

=Who is this GUY=

Blah..Blah..Blah.. just came back from school in the morning and work from noon till 8.15pm wor.. Didnt get to watch Singapore Idol.. wahaha.. left three contestants onlee wor.. wonder wat they did for today's program.. after work chat with my dearie Siti Collegue about my resignation of work if they didnt want to convert mi to fulltime at Feb onwards.. then wanna find new job. haiya..today having mixed feelings leh.. havent been communicating much lately with TDN leh.. i dunno la.. dun feel good as before..perhaps.. he is busy and tired with work ba.. and im quite tight up with school and work cant be bothered much..ba.. haiz... *CROSSED FINGERS*
No mood to write today la.. coz its a mixed feeling for mi today.. argh.. good night to everyone..

=Upset,Frustrated Me=

2004-11-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

At least u wouldnt upset me...though i know is wrong to put ur pic up.. but i feel so lousy abt myself..

Angry Argh!!!! Why isit so unfair.. i wan my WOMEN'S RIGHT... I wan to be a more dominate party... I wan to have my SAY... I wan back myself... my freedom of speech..

Met karen this late afternoon was happy for mi..towards the evening it sux man!! Hate to be treated like a NUISANCE... Hate people who feel that im IRRITATING lor.. Can those who knows mi tell mi.. am i making a fool out of myself.. am i irritating u guys.. or u guys find mi a nuisance...

DAMN IDIOT it just make mi feel so lousy and wanting to hate myself for who i am... why can't people LOVE mi for who i am... i know i dun have the looks,gentleness,graciousness etc... but IM WHO I AM.. WHY CANT U ACCEPT.. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO CHANGE..or LITTLE EVEN ENOUGH TO SEE THE CHANGE..WHY CANT U APPRECIATE THE EFFORT.. SUX..

ARrrrrGhhh~~~ Xtremely Angry~~~ Why cant people feel for mi as well.. u know how SORE i feel deep inside mi anot...

=ANNOUCEMENT TO EVERYONE & ANYONE=

IF anyone knows where to DOWNLOAD TAKESHI KANESHIRO lastest SONY COMMERCIAL.. Do let mi know thanks thanks...

==First Day of 2nd Semester=

2004-11-17T13:47:00.000+08:00

Me & Puiyee

Hippies~~!!! Back from school...kept raining nowadays..very irritating argh!! After class, went to find my darling Puiyee...im so slow..everyone seen her blue fringe (funky colour) expect mi..somemore now schooling at somerset therefore went to visit her.. by the time i see her, her hair colour faded already lor.. pretty nice lor that blue..

Today study Public Relations in class, he gave us the theme of our projects.. suddenly have to urge to do the Image Building and using Takeshi Kaneshiro as endorsement.. *grinz* *heez* my CRAZE is suddenly back... Nononon let my dear know im dead! But incase my lecturer disagree with it, i also thought of an alternative which is doing Tourism Campaign in Japan... goodness... all japanese stuffs wahahaha... but thats my style.. i SIMPLY CANT RESIST FROM J-CULTURE ever since i started listen j-music in 1997, i still remember my first J-rock band i listen to is LUNA SEA....

=Recommendations=

*SHOUTS* PEOPLE oUT There!!! Those who hardly listen to J-music and who dun mind listen to them you guys can trying hearing this band name EXILE--->which is one of my fav as well... Songs like Together , Style and Your eyes only are pretty lively and catchy and pretty like people will enjoy listening to it...

=JapaNesE CrazE=

Every Monday & Tuesday at 11pm im stick closely to the television watching HOTMAN by Takashi Sormanchi... and heard from puiyee that in Japan it is already screening part two... wonder when will spore show it man... i guess my craze for j-dramas & j-music is back!! Its so addiciting!! And everyday Wed-Fri at 11pm im watching last year jap drama shown on SCV by one of my fav.actress Shibasaki (if i did not spelt wrong coz her name is rather long) OOopss :X

=Fashion=

Yesterday night finally reading Cleo's issue on Dec.. saw Levis new jeans style for women with crystals behind the jeans as well as the Levis jacket so attractive lor..wonder when will it launch... feeling like getting it but guess it would be at least 200 plus bucks... if total up jacket + jeans = $500 plus bucks.... * MELTING* *SO TEMPTED*

=Jewellery=

Saw one Cartier pendant like it alot also $900 bucks... *DrooLing* *sparkLes*

AiyoooOooo... i headache... cannot see things nor window shopping...better stay hme if not work more..spend less... somemore i aiming the digital camera LUMIX by panasonic $800 bucks...and wanting a new cellphone as well..guess might coz mi another $800-$1000 bucks man!!*Head SpinNing* Jo ah Jo... why ur stuffs you see one so expensive... *See No Evil*

*MY WATCH TOO* kekeke that cost mi another $300 bucks....

* If i spend less on restaurants and cafes as well as cabby, i guess im able to get all my stuffs* That sounds so incredible....

=Desire 2 Have As Well=

1. Cartier Ring $1,100
2. Coach Ear rings $100
3. LV Cig Case $200+

=Raining Cats & Dogs=

2004-11-16T12:04:00.000+08:00

Wow..its Sunday..started doing my blog..kekeke..havent been resting lately ever since the month Novemeber started..busy *headache* *stressing* with ExamS followed by work.. Guess wat school is starting tml 16 nov 2004 for me..goodness *sob* *sob*

Came back from dear's house this afternoon around two plus..then started nua-ing and nua-ing,watch scv followed by surfing...though its a boring day for it wat to do!! * Bo Pian* Dear busy with work and tml is my first day of school of my second semster...sob sob.. wait wake up late again jialatt...

Hmm...hungry already.. wanna go makan dinner now *yummY* Its Dinner Time

Lastly, today is ME & DEAR ==1 Year & 2 Mths AnniversarY==